Small and Insignificant

Haiz, before I chase my readers away; need to post something.
Problem is, preparation for EOS 5 has made me a hermit. Nothing
interesting has happened these past few days. Hence, I'll jus show
you what I've been up to on the comp.

Weeee...

I realized this might be offensive to some people, so avert your eyes
if you're easily offended. Avert them I say!!!

It's no secret to my friends that I willingly place career over
love anytime. I always have this idea that if love do happen to stumble
across my path, I would have the strength to close that door till
my career takes off.

The trouble arises when that blasted door fails to close.
What's more; it wont close for...for...for a guy.

Think I need to backtrack a bit...

I first saw him in Ikano whilst out shopping with Deb. The first
time our eyes connected, it was just amazing. I knew at that
instance that he was the one for me. His touch, his character,
...it was just perfect.

Fast forward 2 weeks; now, he's barely out of my room. When I'm
out, I sometime can't stop thinking how he's doing, is he ok, and
what special surprise I should get him. I can honestly tell you now
that his presence during the week prior to CNS exam was
just tremendously helpful. He have this god given gift to calm me
down.

Can't imagine how I managed stress without him.

Without further ado, let me introduce you to Rody.
Guys, meet my saviour...

Well, one more historic goodbye- our last SRC Photo shoot. I already
bid farewell to Seremban Hospital, CSU, and my last 'Academic'
lecture. Soon enough, I'll have
to say goodbye to Wei Chun who's leaving on the 10th of June.
Although our official hand of power to the new council is on the 12th
of June, SRC wont be SRC anymore without papa Chun.
No more 'enchanted' moments. This momentous event will
chisel in stone the end, the downfall of SRC 07/08.

Soon after, I'll bid farewell to Megala, David, and Kajen. Within a
blink of an eye, I'll say goodbye to Debbo, Yx, James, Swarna, Ditts,
Ave, Harnesh, Charlotte, Sheah and Mervin.

I'll have to say goodbye to the Debites sleep overs, the late nights,
the ungodly midnight movies, the tyring out new places to eat,
the simple act of just being friends. 

Lastly, I'll say goodbye
to Malaysia. This country ain't perfect, but I sure as hell will miss it's
rustic charm. 2 and a half years seems to have disappeared way
quicker than anticipated.

Goodbye's are horrible; at it's core- it's signifies a permanent
separation with only a hint of union. I've never been that
good with long distance friendships; my UK friends, my secondary
school friends, my MPH friends are all living testament to that.
I hate goodbye's, it means there's a chance I wont ever see you
again. 

But perhaps, time can change one man. Maybe I have matured
enough within these past few years to have built a foundation
strong enough to withstand the onslaught of change.

Time can only tell.

I hope, with all the pictures we've taken together, you'll remember
me,and more importantly, know that I am fondly thinking of you.
Without presence, without emotions, without words,
know that I have you in my heart,

The land moans and the earth shudders.

It has began.

Spews of ashes descends slowly, lightly, unnoticed, till it engulfs the 
entire terrain. It blankets the scene, turning a once familiar area into
something alien. An irrevocable transformation of perception has
occurred. The impending volcanic eruption of change that is to come
signals the end of what we've come to know. The scorching lava will
mercilessly burn any remnant of what we've so arduously built these 
past two and half years.

It has began.

Gazing ahead, the present becomes a blur, giving way to the future.
The process of detaching ourselves is on the way. We are 
already preparing for the flight. This once fertile land is now
inhabitable. We'll flee; to survive.

Clutching our precious memories, experiences and a few memorabilia,
we'll head forward; to a new safe haven- to a new beginning. 

The change has began, we are waiting for the climax.
 

Just before I start on my main topic. Some updates...

Much akin to EOS 1 and EOS 3, the stress diarrhoea is back. This
is probably the longest spree yet. EOS 1 was only 1 week prior to
exam and EOS 3 was for 2 measly weeks. EOS 5 is coming up in
7 weeks. Don't know how I can tahan that long. Although, the silver
lining means that I can eat much more and not gain weight right?
Beauty of diarrhoea.

Another thing, mom received the bouquet of flowers and was
overjoyed. The 99 red roses idea failed miserably due to lack of
funding. With one stem costing RM5 each, that would have set me
back RM500- woot! So reverted to plan B: something elegant and
sweet. One dozen red roses. Just a little bit of knowledge for you
ignorant people out there *wink wink*. 12 red roses represents
eternal love. The number 12 is considered a perfect "round"
number. Look at 12 hours of the day, and 12 months of the
calendar. Cool huh? Different colours meant different things
as well. Still haven't gotten her something though... :-D

It's that time again. The cosmos turning point, that earth shattering
decision of 'shall I cut my hair?' Well, maybe it's not that earth
shattering after all. It would be such a shame though; if everyone
discovered that the end is fast approaching just because I made the
wrong decision hairstyle wise.Oh well. I'm sure I can live with
it. :-D

Anywho, been living with the same short hairstyle for the past 20
years. Think it's time to keep it long and see what happens.
Besides, you can never do all these cool (subject to individuality) 
hairstyles. By the by, not trying to emulate Narcissus, just thought
this cam-whoring session might be fun.

Tada, the 12 hairstyles you can try when you're bored...

I've grown accustomed to my repetitive routine.

I yearn for something.

I've been nestling this rather peculiar instinct of mine for weeks, and
now, it's hardly containable. It's extremely hard to describe, but it's
just... just this feeling of wanting something extraordinary,
something more. I've been actively on the lookout for something
that will accommodate my friends and I, but it's hard.

I love my friends to bits, but looking for something that will cater to
everyone means that there's compromises to be made. It'll be a
collective thing, discussions would be made, plans preformed,
schedules have to be checked, and dates cleared. Wouldn't it be
just lovely to do what you want? No compromises, no questions, no
doubts. When I get the chance, I'll just pack and leave. It's time to
fly solo.

Arriving at this new found realization, the world seems much smaller.
There's nowhere I can't go or do (without boarding a plane). Thought
of just jumping onto one of those bunk train and go anywhere-the
destination's irrelevant. When I get there, I'll know what to do. I've
also been wanting to just drive to some secluded beach and sleep
underneath the heavenly stars. I can go hiking, and camp beside
a lake somewhere.



The possibilities are endless. With my car and a somewhat modest
budget, I can go anywhere and see anything. I'm sick and tired of
being bogged down with the mundane, I want to escape. The
mundane will still be here waiting when I get back; patiently waiting
to envelope me once more.

As long as my camera and iPod is with me, I'll be more than content.
I know the CNS exam is coming up, and EOS soon after, but why
should this be a hindrance? I can spare a day. After 21 years, I've
learned this much; sitting idly for a change to come is pointless, we
chase what we want and we take what we want.

Gah!!! Can't concentrate. Dr.Nilesh's notes is driving me crazy. Took a breather and decided to photoshop old pictures.

Woot!! What a hectic day Friday turned out to be. Friday was packed with CSU, PBL, SRC Meeting, SRC vote counting and 
James' and Ave's Surprise.
I won't dwell too much on the mundane, but the SRC Vote Counting was definitely filled with drama and erratic emotions.  Actually, to be frank; the whole SRC 08/09 Election was a melodrama. Maybe one day I'll get a chance to disclose them; when we step down perhaps (*wink wink*)? I definitely want to get a few things off my chest, especially with regards to SRC's Friend, Our Friend, and the dot dot dot in IMU.  :-D

Anyway, the vote counting ended around 8:40 pm with the results in our hands a few minutes after that. It's interesting to see the Line Up for SRC 08/09. All the best to them, (results officially released on Monday).

First of all, special thanks goes out to Swarna for being my co-conspirator from the beginning and a brilliant strategist. It was a chaotic one hour to get everything finalized. Think I kinda lost my 
temper, pleaded like my life 
depended on it, and shouted a few times to make sure everything went according to plan.
Sorry ah people who got caught in the firing line.

Anywho, finally left IMU at 9:30pm for Souled Out (with a quick Mid Valley detour to pick up the Haagen Daaz ice cream cake) and rendezvous back with the other car at Souled Out 
before the 10:30pm kitchen close deadline. Huhu! Can you actually believe 
we got there first before the other car?They all go pergi sesat pulak. 
They go pusing pusing where oso I don't know. 
Shit!! Lapsed into Manglish. At any rate, they reached us eventually, with David joining us after his Church event.

Part 1 of the surprise went according to plan...



 

Can't really wait for Mother's Day to make my beloved dedication due to her extreme generosity. Muawhahahah!!! Besides, I realized that I haven't even mentioned my 
parents by name even once in this blog. Might as well make one now while the rush of love is still here. :-D Showering her with 99 red roses this Sunday (if the budget allows).