Small and Insignificant

Finally managed to settled in Manchester again. Phew! That took a while. Still on Malaysian time though. Keep on sleeping at 6pm and waking up at 2am. At least I dont feel sleepy during the clinical hours- which is a blessing.

Anyway, need to get rid of this album before the wedding pictures can go up. It'll be a while though- exam coming up on 19th January. So expect some long silences from the blog till then. 

Taa.

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Went to the Lake District with Mike, Maha and Katie. Although the plan was hatched a long time before, finally managed to make it a reality several days before I leave to Malaysia. Thanks goes out to Katie who lent us the use of her cabin up in the District and Mike who drove us there. Muackx. I'm afraid this is a picture blog entry, so I'll just let the pictures do all the talking. 

Note: Dont think I can upload all 150++ pictures here. Head over to Facebook for most of the pictures. Another thing, the pictures are in reverse chronological order. Uploaded it the wrong way. Huhu!

Finally reached back to cold cold UK. It must have snowed sometime back- I can see the remnants on the ground.

When the texts and the phone calls dies away soon after arrival, you're left with this void and a sense of helplessness. I've warned my friends about this a couple of times. This sense of dread is best fought when expected. I've encountered this feeling every single time I fly back to the UK from Malaysia. It's the thing I fear most. It's here right now- even as I am typing; and it's staying. Not phone calls, nor texts from back home can quench it once it enters. You began to question yourself, why am I here? What am I am doing? Is all this worthit?

The worst thing is, I can't even dilute this misery amongst friends. I tried that before, and it made falling down even harder. Feeling this alone, with no remedy in sight but time, is the worst thing I have encountered and experienced in my entire meaningless existence. Why won't it just go away?

I know it'll disappear soon, and I am just as sure that it'll come back again. Rearing it's despairing head to weary homesick travellers.

Sleep is the only solace. It dulls the ache. I wish to wake up later, finding that this is just a nightmare. I can only... dream.